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Name: Hayley
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Monday, December 25, 2006

Survey Says...

I'm bored and it's Christmas! Merry Christmas to you all!  Yay for survey fun!

Name: Hayley Freeman

What time is it: 5:55 pm

Something important on your desk: Post-it-Notes are a must

When you sleep you wear: Victoria's Secret PINK sweatpants

If you could afford it at the moment, you would buy: A foosball table for our extra room

Something you don't have a lot of: Mathematical talent...in fact, I have none

If your house was burning and you could only save 3 items what would they be: My mom, my brother, and

If there were no side effects, you would enjoy being addicted to: Chocolate...it hasn't gotten to me yet, but one of these days I will get fat

A time when you purposely hurt someone emotionally: I don't try to do it purposefully but there have definitely been times I've done it accidentally

A time you accidentally hurt someone emotionally: I can think of ALOT. There has been some quite recently.

One person you have killed in your thoughts: I don't kill people in my thoughts...that's creepy.

Three traits you look for in a friend:
Humor, loyalty, down-to-earthedness

The best piece of advice you had been given:  Join band...a-freaking-men

Your 3 best qualities: Enthusiasm, the ability to find the good in any person/situation, i am willing to try new things

Your 3 worst qualities: I am clueless, I have the worst luck EVER, and I panic a lot

Describe your Ideal self: More in shape, better grasp on the world, better grasp with math, more in tune with people's feelings, more in tune with my own feelings, less sick, healthier

A compliment that makes you blush: You have the prettiest smile!

You are embarassed when: I say somthing really REALLY stupid (all the time)

The greatest physical pain you ever endured: Falling off my bike in 6th grade and tearing up my knee

The greatest emotional pain you ever endured: Failure of any sort...in school, as a friend, as a daughter...it scares me

Moment you are most ashamed of: Sooooooo many...

Your best physical feature:  My smile???

Emotion you hide most: Depression

The emotion you tend to experience most: Panic

The emotion you are feeling most lately: A forced and semi-strained optimism that is slowly proving to be right.

You have a huge amount of guilt regarding: Not being better

When you are angry you need: To have a good cry

When you are sentimental you need: To get or give a hug or fifty million

When you are in love you need: Love IS all you need

One of your most peaceful memories:  Confirmation retreat when I was on prayer staff

One of your most tragic memories: Not too long ago my daddie left

One of your angriest memories: I never really get angry

A memory that makes you laugh: Family parties where the whole family is there and there is a huge dominoes match

a memory that makes you happy: Remembering all the times I drove or was driven around aimlessly with friends

Something someone can say or do that you find extremely attractive: Wear cologne, be a good dancer, touch my face, kiss my nose, not be afraid to let me pay sometimes, pick me up, drive a truck, be able to wink, speak into my ear, be comfy around my family, not be afraid to say cheesy stuff, not be afraid to be dorky, being easygoing

Something someone can say or do that you find unattractive: Try to spoil me with stuff (like material goods instead of deeds), too much cursing, drink a lot, showing off, being cocky, bieng racist/sexist/closed minded, being picky, trying to get me to drink, sexaul harassment, being too aggressive

Two things appealing about people: Eyes and smile

A personality trait you find appealing: Outgoingness

Your secret passion: GUITAR PLAYERSSSSSSS

What you enjoy most about having a committed relationship: Equality, passion, humility, sharing, caring, learning about each other, working together, alone time, nobody else bieng able to understand what ya'll have

If you had more time alone you would: Start writing my novel

If you had more patience you would:  Install everything I need on my computer, update everything on my compy, watch more TV, clean my room, be a really great musician, be excellent at the guitar, be a great dancer, really good at Sudoku...need I go on?

If you could change one thing about your physical appearance what would it be: Abs of steel, man. That's all I gotta say...well...wavy hair might be nice

If you had no committments what would you be doing: What's a life without doing something? I love band even if it is a huge commitment.

If you could have one super power what would it be: To be able to teleport...God I could save so much on gas!

If you could start all over.... I try not to live with regrets. If I feel bad about it I shouldn't have done it in the first place so I shouldn't dwell on it. It's good to move on.

If you had the choice to spin around the sun, or walk on the moon, which would you choose and why? I'd walk on the moon...the sun is kind of hot. An besides...I wouldn't weigh next to nothing on the moon.

What colour do you think best describes you and why? Red...it's passionate, expressive, fiesty, thought-provoking, eye-catching, and it's really bold. It's my favorite color.

Do you know your astrological sign? If so what is it? I'm an Aquarian...yeah water bearer! It's ironic because I get swimmer's ear so I can't go swimming without pain. I can give water, not swim in it.

Do you believe that your dreams are a gateway to your soul? Maybe not so much your soul but to how you feel about things
 

If you could only choose one element to surround yourself with either a)wind, b)fire, c)earth, or d)water, which would you choose and why?
Earth! I love nature, camping, and hikes!

If you had to paint a self-portrait would you make it a)realistic, b)abstract, or c)you'd rather die than have to pick up a paint brush? Explain your answer. I'd try to make it realistic but it may not really turn out to be what everyone expects it to be because there is a part of me that not many people see or know.

Which do you prefer more and why, a)natural light, b)candle light, c)florescent light, or d)moonlight? Natural light from the sun. I don't turn on any lights until night time.

Do you believe in karma? Do you even know what karma is? I do know what it is, and yes I do believe in it.  Seriously, I've done some good and I've been rewarded and I've done some bad and I have felt the wrath of Karma.  Don't mess with it...

How about fate? Are we all fulfilling a destiny here on earth? I don't tihnk it's all planned out but I think there is such thing as certain people and situations that you are supposed to come across.  Ultimatley YOU have to decide how you deal with that which is dealt to you, but it was all meant to be dealt to you.

Which sense could you not live without, and why? Sight...not being able to see would kill me.  I like to see people i care about and beautiful tihngs. Being blind would scare me.

Have you ever written on a mirror? If so what did you write? No I haven't.

Have you ever written or drawn on another person? If so who, and what did you write/draw? Mostly smiley faces...I remember one time Charlotte and I got bored during a presentation and we drew all over each other.

What do you wish on? I pray to God stuff will happen

Right now is your life, spiraling, or ascending? Why? Maybe both...it's spiraling in an upward motion...good for now.

If you could change one thing you did in the last 24 hours, what would it be and why? Wouldn't change a thing! 

Do you believe in heaven? If so what do you think it will be like?
Knowing of God and all that He did in your life and sitting in his prescence.

What is your worst fear in the world? Does it consume you? Heights and falling...and yes it's awfully consuming...

What is one thing that can make you smile no matter what mood your in? Shopping or just hanging out with my mommie.

What was the last thing someone said to you? I love you

What was the last thing you said to them? I love you too!


Tuesday, November 21, 2006

Idioms--something by me

(I dunno what this is, but I just wrote it so I hope you enjoy it or something)

Love was a chip on my shoulder,
A huge pain in my behind.
But my love for you came,
Like a bolt from the blue.
And now I'm struck with shock and awe.

It's hard for me to understand
Like an idiom to a foreigner


Honey, it's terribly sad but true
Only God knows the way of the winds.
But I can only hope it catches your sails,
And brings you straight to me.
But just as I earlier explained...

It's hard for me to understand
Like an idiom to a foreigner

I'm getting down to brass tacks
I want you to be my ball and chain.
But only in a good way, my dear.
It's the worst way ever,
Say the doubters and non-believers.

It's hard for them to understand
Just like an idiom to a foreigner.

Make no bones about it
I wanna defy Murphy's Law
They say nothing is certain
But death and taxes, baby.
I wanna push the envelope for you.

This may be hard to understand
Like an idiom to a foreigner
But I hope you do understand
Because my heart is yours: Full Monty,
And you've carried it over the threshold,
Into a bed of perfect bliss.

 Hayley


Friday, November 17, 2006

A Different Kind of Homesickness

I think I just proved there is a way to be homesick without ever leaving home.  It sounds a bit silly, but I tend to find ways to make the most presposterous things happen.

I, Hayley Freeman, am homesick and I haven't even left Fort Worth...or even my house.  How does this happen?

Well...I miss what home was like before college.  The funny thing is I am just starting to realize that I miss all of my friends so much and that I don't see or talk to them as much...and next week I will get to see most of them.  I would be on my way to do something and I'd drive near thier houses and think back on times when we used to hang out and kill time doing nothing in particular or drive around aimlessly all hours of the night because we could.

It seems really odd that I am missing my friends right before I get to see them again.  I think it is more of the realization that it's not a permanent thing and they, too, have to go back.  The good news is, it will only be for a while because Christmas Break is coming up.  But still...it seems like the more I see people, the more I will miss them when they are gone again.

I think it is harder for someone to be left behind than it is to go away.  Perhaps you would think it was the other way around because everything is the same for me, but everyone else gets to go off and do something new.  That's not true though because nothing is the same.  The location may be, but I don't get to be with everyone and that makes it completely different.

It's the weirdest thing. Tell me I'm not crazy.

 

Hayley


Monday, September 25, 2006

Time Killer

When you have nothing to do you find something that isn't very useful to do just to keep yourself occupied.  That is called "killing time".  While the term is quite accurate, I can't help but find it kind of violent.  I don't know what would be a better terminology for it...I don't know...maybe "laying time to rest".

Lately what I've tried to do to "kill time" required me to better myself in some shape or form.  The Library is a useful way to either study, complete reading I should have done at home, or a way to get all my thoughts out online via blogging.

I do murder my time a lot with this whole blogging thing.  I have a lot on my mind, whether you believe so or not.  Mostly these are unimportant musings of mine, and most of them are just a way for me to say what I want to say without stirring the pot or rocking the boat.  If I say something angry here...it's neutral.  No one has to know who/what I'm angry at.  If I say anything about love, no one has to know who I'm pining for.

For clarity's sake, I don't like the thought of overly-privatizing my life.  Otherwise I would not be on facebook and I would not blog for my enjoyment.  I want people to know what I'm feeling and know what goes on in my head.  I just don't give specifics.

Like all other blog entries, this one really has no point.  I'm not yelling at anyone for anything and I'm not trying to prove a point.  I'm just "killing time" and telling whoever decides they want to read what is just flowing through my mind like basaltic lava (haha...we learned about lava viscosity in Understanding Earth...basaltic lava is the least viscuous of all meaning it flows easily).  It flows from my brain, down my spinal cord, through my arms, down to my fingers which flood this very page on the computer with many words.

The weekend was super.  I worked on Saturday and Sunday...and I chose not to party.  I still made it home rather late Saturday/early Sunday (depending on how you wanna look at it), but I felt a little less tired than normal.  And while most of it I battled some sort of internal tsunami (dealing, again, with home life), I managed to make better what little time was not consumed by work.

Hmm...I like that more than "killing time".  "Making better" time, I mean.

So I guess the title of this should be just that instead of time killer.  But alas, what's done is done!

On to make better of my time!!!

Hayley


Sunday, September 24, 2006

Something peaceful...

There's always something peaceful about Sundays..especially when it's early morning.  It's so early right now that it seems like the whole world is asleep in their bed.  Time seems to stop for them at least...until the first rays of sunshine hit their face and they awake.  I, on the other hand, am still going.

You see most people in a few hours will be starting their day new.  My yesterday has not yet ended. I would have three hours rest if i decided to turn in now.  Is that sufficient time to start over?  Is it time enough to realize what wrongs I have done, what pain can be attributed to me, and the sins that soil my spirit?  Is it time enough to wipe my tears, fix my problems, and take a chill pill.

I don't know...but I'll find out soon enough. Goodnight/morning my friends.

Hayley



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